I want music! I want crescendos and diminuendos, life, vibrance, heartache, joy, anger, excitement, energy. Music has a weird, broken place in my life right now but I yearn for the epiphany of music I've felt on occasion. The connection of an angsty teen to music, but less self-conscious. I want music for me, finally. I think music will help me through these trying times, and bring me to myself.